Wednesday, February 20, 2008

All the Other Stuff

Usually I like to make separate posts for each thought, event, or idea. Consider yourself warned that this post will not follow my usual trend. You might even want to read it in batches because it's like a melting pot of random things. The pictures will guide the commentary.


Let's start here. I love Jon. He is a sweetie. It's SO unromantic to be married to a sick & tired pregnant lady, but he has been FOUR times. And he's been nice to me and shown his kindness in his actions everyday. It's also not very romantic to be married to a sleep deprived new mother who doesn't look lovely on most days. And yet, after my Jon dropped the kids off at school he stopped by the store to bring home a dozen VERY long stemmed pink roses and delicious chocolate covered strawberries. It's a beautiful display of his love that I feel every day. Lucky me.


The recliner is where I spend most of my current life. I doze off during the night in this chair. Jayson loves to sleep on my chest and I can't think of anything sweeter. This is what I look like most days.




None of my other kids have been big fans of pacifiers. I've tried to force them upon them with little success. Jayson is the first to truly enjoy the small comfort it provides.


Jacob lost TWO teeth in one day. They're the two on top - one on each side.


I think baby toes are completely kissable. You can't really see from this picture, but Jayson's baby toe is the longest baby toe I've ever seen. He didn't get that from me. Mine's a midget.


I need to focus more on how sweet it is that Jessica wants to be close to the baby. I often feel so claustrophobic because the kids want to get up close and personal with the baby, but the baby is usually on my lap. Jessica says things like, "I want to pet her." and "She wants her paci." Jessica doesn't understand pronouns and now I'm getting them all mixed up too. When the baby cries, Jessica gets in front of me and says, "it's all right - mommy's got you"


Our family likes to watch America's Funniest Videos. I looked over at all the kids cuddling with dad and laughing and wanted to remember it. So I tossed Jayson on top and grabbed the camera.


Jayson doesn't like being put down in his bed to sleep. He is getting better at night, but he prefers being held.


I don't wear fancy anything - make-up included. But I did enjoy picking out some new compacts and brushes and lipgloss since Jessica was using mine to paint on the counter tops. I rarely wear make-up these days. If I get some on, it's usually concealer to hide the under-eye bags, mascara, and sometimes gloss or blistex.


Jon often holds our babies at the dinner table so I can hurry and eat before nursing again. Seeing Jon this night reminded me of our days in the apartment with baby James. Seems like it could be yesterday.


Finally, I'm posting our front room leather furniture - just the three pieces. The footrest/ottoman holds my piano sheet music, our hymnbooks, and scriptures. We used to read the Book of Mormon as a family before school in this room, but it seems that we've had more success lately reading in the family room (wear my recliner is) in the evening. Sometimes Jon reads with the kids without me. He's been inspired from a priesthood meeting to help our family get through the scriptures hopefully before Jacob's baptism - it's a good goal whether we finish before August or not.



Jessica hasn't taken formal naps for a LONG time. Lately she has fallen asleep after she goes to My Gym (it's a fitness center for kids that plays games, teaches gymnastic exercises, and promotes movement). Jessica loves jumping on the trampoline and bounces super high.


A peek into our Valentines Day:




It's hard to top roses & strawberries. I just ran to Albertson's to get balloons to make the kitchen more festive. I had already gotten heart paper goods for our family Valentine's dinner that was so not fancy I can't remember what it was. I baked chocolate chip cookies (a favorite of Jon's when he's not being so health conscious) . Then I decided to try one big heart. No- I didn't have a special pan and so yes it turned into a cookie blob. I cut the heart shape and wrapped it in red wrap. Also, NEVER believe cookie or brownie recipes when they tell you the cooking time. Not if you want them soft and chewy. I didn't follow my own rule and this turned out TOO crispy. Gross. Nice Valentines gift from me. I HOPE it's the thought that counts.

Although I suck at finding a sweet gift for my sweetheart, I do rock at finding things for the kids. James is a total video game addict - Luigi being his favorite character. Jon & I found a stuffed Luigi when we were on a recent ice cream date. James was thrilled. For Jacob we got a little Lego racer. He loves putting those projects together. For Jessica - new playdoh which has been outside in the playhouse and was rained on yesterday and today. Our backyard looks like a dump. I haven't taken pictures of it.


Here's my littlest Valentine. I Heart U 2!!!


Look at all the love from my boys. I'm officially 35 years old. Cheesecake is my favorite kind of cake, but the kids hate it. Jessica was throwing a tantrum about who knows what so she isn't part of the party pictures.

I nearly have to twist Jacob's arm to get him to talk to me let alone kiss my goodnight. James on the other arm comes to my recliner two or three times to say goodnight and give me a kiss. (once before he goes upstairs, once after he has finished his reading, and sometimes one more trip downstairs for good measure).

Look at my gifts - one was a package of Oreos to top off my cheesecake, two of them are boxes of graham crackers that I had been craving, and the big on is a food processor that Jon & I talked about getting for the kitchen so we can better puree food and make Jessica Seinfeld's recipes. I haven't used it once yet. Perhaps when Jayson starts eating solids. I bought new tees from Old Navy and a nice top to wear to church (I taught my first Relief Society lesson and wanted to look nice) with my birthday money.


I like to have a picture when the babies start using the car seat. I know it is only a matter of months before the legs are dangling over the edges and the head reaches the top.


I haven't taken a nice photo of Jayson's new bed set. That made it to my had-to-haves list. But I did find one that I liked on clearance, so I felt justified. I finally opted to skip the baby mobile. Forty dollars (actually $30 was the clearance price) just seemed super steep for an item that is mostly for show. (Remember how I said that my babies don't like being in the crib much). But, when I found a blue one (with stuffed hippo, giraffe, bear, etc.) on Target's clearance rack for $6, I decided we needed one for sure.



These roses have been SO gorgeous in my kitchen. I felt bad that I hadn't gotten a nice photo of them. I grabbed a handful of them and caught a couple pictures nearly a week after V-day.


Yes. We still have a candy machine in our kitchen. It really does require quarters. You can see that we still have the Christmas M&M mix in it.


The boys got SO excited about having a camp out in our backyard. I had my doubts from the beginning that they'd even last an hour outside after dark. Jacob sometimes walks in his sleep and who knows where he'd end up in the neighborhood. Then it got REALLY cold, so it was for sure out of the question. Jon brought the little tent inside so they could have an indoor camp out. Jacob & Jessica fell asleep in front of the TV. James asked if Dad would put Jacob in the tent so he didn't have to sleep alone. The next morning they rolled out of the tent to play video games (at around 5:30 a.m.)



Finally, pictures of Jessica's Princess bed. I got the cute white toddler bed at BabiesRUs and the bedding from Target. I'd like to get a picture with my princess and her princess pjs sleeping in it.


Messes like this regularly occur wherever Jessica has been. She likes to take gobs of toilet paper to use for wrapping paper and dollie blankets. I find scraps EVERYWHERE.


I always have loads of laundry to do, but I don't mind. This is my favorite household job. I usually call each load a batch as in, "I need to toss in a batch of laundry." My friends say it sounds like I'm making cookies.


Jessica has her flip flops on the wrong feet more often than on the right. I don't know how it can be comfortable. It doesn't bother her a bit.


Oh My Jessica! She changes her clothes 3-4 times daily. Her princess pajamas are like dress-up gowns. She leaves them all over. She's been stealing my wipes now too. I'm not sure what she does with those.


More Jessica. There was not a picture colored in the making of this mess. Just scattered brand new crayons that got stepped on.


Jessica leaves her shoes all over the house. The same pair can be moved to 4 or 5 locations in the same day. She is also very fond of her new Barbie Band-aids. I can't seem to keep them in the first aid cupboard.

Finally, I must confess my GUILT.

These are the thank-you cards that I bought over a month ago to send out after my baby shower. I have written the thoughts in my mind a hundred times, but not one card. I feel so grateful in my heart for all the nice baby gifts we received. So many people were so helpful with the baby shower, with watching my kids, with helping with carpools, etc. What - I can't thank them enough so I don't thank them at all???

So, to those who deserve one of these cards, please know that I thank you.

Also in this photo is my copy of the Book of Mormon. I've taken the Hinckley Challenge and doing my best to read the entire book in 97 days (Pres. Hinckley's age when he died). I'm already behind on the pages, so I need to get going. My eyes don't focus when I'm tired. And by the way, when was the last time you saw me wearing my glasses??


This is the tower of unreturned dishes from the scrumptious meals that friends brought over. Thank you so much for feeding me and my family. I was so exhausted and achy and mentally drained. Your meals really brought me a lot of comfort and help. THanks!

Sunday, February 17, 2008

I Believe in Rocking Chairs...

...or in my case a very cozy rocking recliner with a foot rest. I have fallen asleep in mine many times. I like it when my babies want to cuddle because I love to hold them. I especially love to hold them when they are sleeping. I've read all the warnings from the sleep experts that I'm training my baby not to fall asleep himself. But I've also learned that the time where little ones DON'T want to be held by mommy comes way too fast. The truth is we both like it better when he falls asleep in my arms. It is tricky when there are still so many timetables to meet. If anything, having a baby helps me slow down and eliminate a lot of the extra stuff.

My Aunt Gaye sent the sweet poem I've posted on the right of my blog. It reminds me of one I had posted in our last home in the entryway (like a disclaimer) when my boys were babies. Here's a version of it:

Excuse This House

Some houses try to hide the fact
That children shelter there,
Ours boasts it quite openly,
The signs are everywhere.

For smears are on the windows,
Little smudges are on the doors
I guess I should apologize
For toys strew on the floor.

But I sat down with my children
And we played and laughed and read
And if the doorbell doesn’t shine,
Their eyes will shine instead.

For when at times I’m forced to choose
The one job or the other,
I’d like to have a tidy house,
But first I’ll be a mother

One Month





Where has the time gone? One month already. I don't feel replenished, but I do have a better grip. Jayson was yellow for way longer than I thought necessary. His umbilical cord stuck around forever. He seems to be the runt of the family because he hasn't piled on the weight like his siblings, so I worried about that too. He seems to be going through a growth spurt this week - cluster feeding for several hours straight. He drains his mom and then downs what Daddy & Enfamil can give him. His cheeks are getting chubbier.

I can't decide on a favorite. Which one do you like best and why? Please comment.

And here are some others from the afternoon. It was nearly impossible to get any of him sleeping/resting because he doesn't like to be put down AND he has three VERY loud siblings that continually barged into the front room to ask what I was doing and why I was STILL taking pictures. This was not a short portrait sitting. I had to feed and rock baby every other minute (or so it seemed).







Saturday, February 16, 2008

Eyes



He's waking up. Too bad I'm not. I'm up with him for hours throughout the night. I wish I didn't need sleep. I love holding him. I wish I weren't so tired. I wish I didn't have 50 pounds to lose now. I wish I could write down all the thoughts I've been having, but I can't keep up. I'm afraid if I blink I'll miss it.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Missing Mom Already



I just dropped mom off at the airport this morning and I'm missing her already. I enjoy my mom's company and it's a special treat when I get her all to myself. She was here for six days. My home has been polished from top to bottom. We made it out to lunch a couple of times and spent a lot of time together while I sat in my recliner holding/feeding baby. Mom took a couple of night shifts with the bottle to try to help me get some more sleep. She carpooled my kids to school and My Gym. She was able to play with each of the kids and listen to them tell all their tales. Jessica got her hair done each day AND dinner was ready every evening. How am I going to do all that?! Probably I won't - I'll just keep trying to do a little more each day.

Sunday, February 10, 2008

Sunday Afternoon Snaps

Jessica has really enjoyed having Grandma at our house. She has made glue soaked crafts and painted any papers she could get her hands on. She modeled her princess outfits and invited Grandma to have a tea party. It's not going to be near as much fun without her.



Even though we should have been napping, we went to the backyard to catch some snapshots. It is a rare site to be dressed with hair and make-up done all at the same time. Twas the worst possible lighting of the day, but gotta do the best with what you've got.



Little Red Head


Friday, February 8, 2008

2 1/2 weeks


Did I tell you that both the Nikon camera & video camera broke the week Jayson was born. We've sent the camera off for repair and won't see it back for another week. We purchased a new video camera with accumulated Sony Points. I borrowed Sara's camera, but needed to get a compact flash (and some rest because I can barely see straight). Finally I took some pictures last Sunday, but editing them is a daunting task. Anyway, here's what I've got (that and a crying baby who needs to be fed RIGHT NOW).

Thursday, February 7, 2008

Heaven


So happy to snuggle up with my little piece of heaven. He too loves to sleep while being cuddled - which makes nighttime tricky when I try to put him down for bed. I haven't slept for more than a three hour block for 3 weeks now. My 5-7 broken hours of rest is barely cutting it, but I have mom's help this week. The true test will be next week when Jon's at work & I'm in charge of FOUR kids (not just me & Jayson).

Monday, February 4, 2008

Clean Slate



The truth is that I completely failed at my goal to read the Book of Mormon last year. I'm stuck somewhere in Alma. So at the new year I decided that I wasn't going to beat myself up about it, I was just going to forgive and forget and start over - a clean slate.

So when I received an invite from my cousin to participate in reading the Book of Mormon in 97 days in honor of President Gordon B. Hinckley, I decided that this challenge might be just what I need to get myself back on track. Notice my little progress graph on the right side of the blog.

You too are invited. Visit www.HinckleyChallenge.com and sign up. I think that I am warrior #4200.

I love how President Hinckley would wave his cane around - rarely using it as a crutch. With this challenge in mind, it makes me think of holding to the rod or the word of God. I need to go do some more reading before my vision is completely blurred with fatigue :)