4:54 a.m.

I spend my nights in shallow sleep. Tossing repeatedly and uncomfortably from side to side. I wake to use the bathroom. I'm too hot with blankets even during the cool nights. Again I wake to the sound of "ching, ching, ching." It's still dark. I glance at the clock - not even 5 a.m. and my boys are up collecting coins in Mario's galaxy. I barely can walk down the hall to whisper the news they don't want to hear. "You have to go back to bed until at least 6 a.m."